Tuesday, December 29, 2015

12.29.2015 / Tue pm / 180
Bench Press, touch and go
45 x 12 x 2
135 x 6
225 x 4
245 x 2
255 x 2
265 x 2

Sunday, December 27, 2015

12.27.2015 / Sun - am / 180 lbs. 
Olympic-style Back Squat, no belt, no wraps
45 x 12 x 2
135 x 6
225 x 4
275 x 2
315 x 1
335 x miss
Deadlift, conventional, hook grip, no belt 405 x 1 RPE 9.5

Two weeks ago I squatted 335 x 2 and pulled 455 x 2. Today I squatted 315 once and failed 335. The 405 single pull felt harder than it would have had I not failed a squat first, but I doubt I would be able to pull more than 425 for a single, even when fresh. So I'm clearly equally depressed in both lifts because my lower body just hasn't recovered yet.

But I was able to squat 335 for a doulbe last week and then 345 for a single. So I'm not doing something right.

Mixed bag concerning mass gain, too. I'm not gaining any mass at all it seems. But I'm still very close to my all time best bench press at a much lower bodyweight. I got 275 x 4 and 285 x 2 x 2 when I was 190-198. But now I'm at 275 x 2 and I'm only 180 lbs. I'm over 10 lbs lighter, but within 10 lbs of my strongest.

Fuck it. I'm upping the Super Laxo dose up to 120 mg and starting Epi Andro at 4 tabs. I don't think the LGD is doing as well for me this time around.

Saturday, December 26, 2015

12.26.2015 / Sat - am / 182 lbs?
Bench Press, touch and go 
45 x 12 x 2
135 x 6
225 x 4
255 x 2
275 x 2

Olympic-style Squat, light/loose wraps, no belt
45 x 16
135 x 8
225 x 4
275 x 2
315 x 1

Bench went great with me getting within 10 lbs of my best ever double but at a much lower bodyweight.

Then squats sent me into a mild depression. Even tired from bench, I should have been able to crank out 315 as a warmup. Instead it felt like a max.

Added 60 mg laxogenin ED starting last night.

Thursday, December 24, 2015

12.23.2015 / Wed - pm / 182 lbs
Bench Press, touch and go 
45 x 12
135 x 6
225 x 3
255 x 2
265 x 2
270 x 1 x 2
OADBR 100 x 10

I was hoping for at least one double with 270, but it was not to be. I feel like the LGD isn't kicking in the way it did the first time. Granted, I only dosed at 5 mg the first couple weeks. My appetite is a bit bigger, but nothing drastic. I'm gaining weight, but slowly. My deadlift is still much improved, and my squat and bench are definitely higher than they were this summer, but they are not as much higher as my deadlift since I am still lighter than I was at my peak.

Here are my lifts at my starting bodyweight of 176 and my current bodyweight of 182.

@182 ---- 355 /// 275 /// 475
@176 ---- 320 /// 220 /// 440
-----------------------------------
@ - 6  ----  -35 /// -55 /// - 35

Six pounds have put 35 lbs each on my squat and deadlift and 55 lbs on my bench. When I get back up to 190 this time around I hope that I finally can crack 405 on the Olympic squat and 315 on the bench. I expect I'll be quite a bit over 500 on the beltless deadlift.


Sunday, December 20, 2015

12.20.2015 / Sun-am / 182 lbs
Olympic-style Squat, no belt, light/loose wraps
45 x 16
135 x 8
225 x 4
275 x 2
315 x 2
335 x 2
345 x 1 + miss
Front Squat 275 x 1 x 2

One-Arm DB Row
115 x 5
150 x 3
130 x 5 x 3

I'm back down to 182. I thought I'd been eating more enough to start putting on weight. Squat is reflecting my lack of bodyweight gains. Back squat down about 40 lbs still, and front squat down 30 lbs. I curled 100 x 5 and did some vertical leaps, then after rows curled 110 x 2. But I don't feel like recording those inline.

Saturday, December 19, 2015

12.19.2015 / Sat - pm / 184 lbs
Bench Press, touch and go
45 x 12
135 x 6
225 x 3
255 x 2
265 x 2 x 3, 1

Top doubles felt better with each set. And as usual, things fell apart on set four. Still, got volume with 265 doubles and that's a step in the right direction.
After a thorough coffee-induced evacuation and prior to any solid intake, I am weighing just an ounce or two under 184 lbs this morning. That's a 2-lb increase over my 182 highest in just a couple of days of doubling my dosage to 10 mg ED.

Friday, December 18, 2015

12.17.2015 / Thur - pm / 182 lbs
Bench Press, touch and go
45 x 12
135 x 6
225 x 3
245 x 2
255 x 2

Olympic-Style Squat, no wraps, no belt
45 x 12
135 x 6
225 x 3

I was shocked at how weak I felt upon starting. Then I could only bench 255 for a hard double, as if I'd just finished a tough set of squats or something first. Then I got to the squat and felt like I would be crushed by 275.

I figure I am still not recovered from that max double on the deadlift three days ago.

This is really disconcerting still. I mean, I know max deadlifts take a while to recover from, but I don't think I've ever been this weak so many days out from a max. And even my bench is still affected, though clearly my squat is hurt way more.

It's the next morning and I'm only weighing 180. Seriously, what the fuck?

I'm going to try again on Sunday when I'm up around Lake Mary where I can used the 150-lb DBs for rows. Going to try again for 275 on the bench and 345 on the squat.


Tuesday, December 15, 2015

This is Day 15 of dosing LGD-4033 at 5 mg ED. Now that I know that this stuff works, I am trying my hand at a lower dose to see if I can get results almost as good as the higher dose without the complications that come with the higher dose.

One thing has been very clear. I have lost about 80% of my mass gains...but I've kept about 80% of my strength gains. I went from 176 to 198 and now I'm back down to a little over 180 (182 this morning). But at 176, my numbers were roughly 320/220/440. At 198, my numbers were roughly 390/300/490 (estimated beltless numbers). Now at 182, my numbers are about 350/280/480 (estimated).

So 22 lbs got me +70/+80/+50. Losing 16 lbs lost me -40/-20/-10. So a net gain of 6 lbs got me +30/+60/+40. In other words, 72% loss of new mass meant a loss of a little under 60% on the squat gains, 25% on the bench gains, and just 20% tops on the deadlift gains.

That seems like my squat losses were almost 1-to-1 with my mass losses. But again I avoided squat training for weeks at a time in an attempt not to hinder my quad trigger point rehab! The squat is the lift most vulnerable to losses from bodyweight decrease and lack of practice.

My bench has taken a bit of  hit, but not that bad. It was up 80 lbs when my bodyweight was up 22 lbs. Now it's still up about 60 lbs even though my final bodyweight is only about five pounds higher than my starting point.

My deadlift has hardly taken a hit at all. Though to be fair, it didn't benefit from my weight increase as much as my squat or nearly as much as my bench. It got to 490 (tested 500 with belt), a 50-lb increase after my 22-lb increase in bodyweight. Now it's still at about 480, a 40-lb increase over my start.

My squat has taken the biggest hit. But I really haven't been training it as I've been trying to correct a lot of dysfunction in my quads while I've been taking a break from dosing. If I'd actually been squatting, I'm sure I would have maintained more squat strength and perhaps a bit more bodyweight.

I think what I've done is managed a successful recomposition . I lost fat and gained muscle. My ending bodyweight is higher and more of me is lean tissue. I'm only a few pounds (~5) heavier, but considerably stronger.

It's very interesting that my weight climbed so much higher, however. So I guess an awful lot of that weight was due to increased glycogen and water storage. Which is in accord with what I've read about testosterone and a couple of steroids.

I have to point out that I retained a lot of this strength despite what seems like a dedicated effort to erase the gains. I barely trained; I barely ate; I engaged in recreational activities that are notoriously deleterious for maintaining healthy lean mass.


Monday, December 14, 2015

12.14.2015 / Mon-pm / 181 lbs
Olympic-style Squat, no belt, light/loose wraps
45 x 12
135 x 6
225 x 3
275 x 2
305 x 2
325 x 2
335 x 2, 1

Bench Press, touch and go
45 x 12
135 x 6
225 x 3
245 x 2
255 x 2

Deadlift, conventional, hook grip, no belt
315 x 2
405 x 2
425 x 2
445 x 2
455 x 2 RPE 10

Thursday, December 10, 2015

12.10.2015 / 182 lbs / Thursday - pm
Bench Press, touch and go 
45 x 12 x 2
135 x 6
225 x 3
245 x 2
255 x 2
265 x 2
One-Arm DB Row 100 x 10 x 4

Slip sliding away. Only 180-182 these days. Off my top bench by 20 lbs. Actually still not bad when one considers lack of training, eating, and dosing.

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Day Two And Three: I Wish I Were Dead

12.02.2015 / Wed - pm / 184 lbs
Olympic Squat, light/loose wraps, no belt
135 x 6
225 x 3
255 x 8 x 3
275 x 5
295 x 2 x 2
315 x 1

Much better than yesterday. But the 315 wasn't as snappy. Other than that, much smoother. But I'm typing this the next day and I'm feeling a bit sore and very lethargic. The knot in my left leg is now very defined and feels like a rocky bubble in my thigh. I've been working on it so much that it's finally reacting, I think.

I'm supposed to work up to a single with 335 today after 275 x 5 x 4, 295 x 3, and 315 x 2 x 2. As of right now that seems impossible. But maybe I'll feel differently tonight after I've warmed up.

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Start Smolov Intro Microcycle

12.01.2015 / Tue-pm / 182 lbs 
Olympic Squat, light/loose wraps, no belt
45 x 12
135 x 6
225 x 3
255 x 8 x 3
275 x 5
295 x 2 x 2
315 x 1

I restarted the LGD today. I'm just going to run it at 1 5mg pill ED. This is not supposed to affect appetite directly, but I was starving this morning which is unusual. In my experience, LGD DOES make me hungrier, an effect that is multiplied by MK 677. It's probably mostly due to the increase in training volume, but something seems to be going on there.

The three sets of eight sucked. I got forced onto my toes on fifth rep of the third set. This is prepping me for the four sets of nine in two weeks. The 315 single felt surprisingly strong when I finally got to it. I have to repeat this session tomorrow.

I am rolling religiously. This is the most important restorative activity for me.

I am going to start notating my wrap use based on thickness and tightness. My light wraps are the Harbinger black "Power" wraps; my medium wraps are Harbinger or Valeo "Red Line", which are the traditional type of "old school" wraps from the 80's; my heavy wraps are the Inzer "True Blacks" which are your typical modern powerlifting wraps.

Next Morning: 

I weigh 184 this morning. Looks like things are moving back up.

Intro Microcycle

Tuesday:           65%x8x3, 70%x5, 75%x2x2, 80%x1 = 255x8x3, 275x5, 295x2x2, 315x1
Wednesday:   65%x8x3, 70%x5, 75%x2x2, 80%x1 = 255x8x3, 275x5, 295x2x2, 315x1
Thursday:          70%x5x4, 75%x3, 80%x2x2, 90%x1 = 275x5x4, 295x3, 315x2x2, 355x1
Friday-Sunday: stretching, PVC rolling, lunging

Tuesday:         80% x 5 =315 x 5
Thursday:       83% x 5 = 325 x 5
Saturday:        85% x 5 = 335 x 5

Base Mesocycle

Tuesday:   275 x 9 x 4
Thursday:  295 x 7 x 5
Saturday:  315 x 5 x 7
Sunday:    335 x 3 x 10

Tuesday:   295 x 9 x 4
Thursday: 315 x 7 x 5
Saturday:  335 x 5 x 7
Sunday:    355 x 3 x 10

Tuesday:   305 x 9 x 4
Thursday:  325 x 7 x 5
Saturday:  345 x 5 x 7
Sunday:    365 x 3 x 10

Tuesday:
Thursday:
Saturday:  ...max
Sunday:    ...max








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